I have a weight problem. That is not something that is debatable. Caused by genetics, medication, and a sedentary lifestyle, among other things probably, I’m having a hard time losing weight. I want to lose weight for my health and I want to lose weight for my appearance and self-esteem. I’ve talked about all this before.
But something I’ve been noticing recently is that I’m having more Good Body Days, where I appreciate myself, than I used to. I still have a majority of Bad Body Days, where I hate my body and myself, but it’s great to actually feel good sometimes.
For example, I wrote the post Shape about liking the shape of my face, and it’s true! Sometimes I even look at my face and think, “I look pretty today.”
On the other hand, today I saw myself in my full length mirror when I was getting dressed and literally said aloud, “My body is disgusting”
But then, just yesterday, when I was changing into pajamas, I saw myself and I thought, “Man, my boobs are awesome.”
So it depends on the day. There are some bits I will probably always hate, like my stomach, chin, and neck, other parts that will change, like some days I love my thick thighs, other days I think they’re just fat.
It’s important to be healthy – and I’m working on that part. But it’s also important to love yourself. Every body is a good body.